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Sunday, February 27, 2005
Hmmm... Which one should I get and YES! I'm investing a Mini iPod~ Or should I? PLease tell me...

The Pink One?
Or the Silver One?
if i ain't got you|11:22 PM|

It's already SUnday.. hmmm.. Tomorrow have to go back to that sickening office and rot and maybe even feel like puking again. Now I really appreciate weekends, coz it's time when we and Darling could spend quality time together.
Yesterday me and Darling went to Suntec and I had a great time. Darling kept holding my waist.. they say "holding the waist" means u won't bear to let her go. =) Then we ate Fish and Co again.. Darling's treat this time.. heheh.. But becoz our appetite is kinda small.. we juts ordered the Lemon Butter mussels and one whole line fish (Sambal). Wanted to eat Japanses food.. but all not very tempting. I slept quite early.. I started slping at 9PM whereas Darling at my hse playing Maple Story.. then later at 1AM.. Darling said he's hungry so we went to a coffeeshop and ate something.. then when I reached home.. I went back to slp almost immediately again.
Now I'm pretty fresh. =) And yar.. yesterday I somehow found out how much the earrings which my Darling gave me.. it's pretty alot.. in fact really alot more than I've expected.. Thanks again dear.. and once again.. I'm going to say.. U are not dumb or stupid to buy "16" instead of "14".. Just forget about wad I've said yesterday. U are still so sweet (:
if i ain't got you|12:42 PM|

Saturday, February 26, 2005
Grrrr... I'm so hungry... I wonder wad is Darling doing now.. supposingly to buy my sister's birthday present today.. Looked in the Maple he also not there.. He's also not online. And he just msged me that he's still on the BED!!!
Wad a good life he has.. I went for tuition this morning and only could sleep a lil much later.. but good eenough.. but still I dun have the "fu qi" to slp till afternoon.. Tomorrow srill need to go Carissa's hse for tuition again becoz hse's having exams on Monday already.. so yapz.. gotta wake up around 9 plus again.
I miss lots of things lately.. Sentosa, Town, Friends, Shopping, Food (gulps), SLEEP!!! Haiz.. I wanted to curse and swear some driver here.. but it wouldn't be that nice.. BUt I sincerely hope he/she would drive at a slower speed next time... if not got accident.. then how? OoPz again..
I don't know what to eat cause I dun ahve lunch and breakfast.. T_T
if i ain't got you|12:56 PM|

Friday, February 25, 2005
Don't know wads wrong.. every time I face my computer in OCBC, I will feel nauseous and feeling giddy.. This started when I had this intensive testing on Monday (Coz OIC said wanna meet up on Tuesday, so must do as much as we can lor.. lolz). I hope today I'll feel better.
Yesterday my LO, Ms Lee Foon Yee came. She's a pleasant and nice person. She was asking our progress and we told her our difficulties and we are kinda concerned about our gradings.. So she helped us toked to our OIC and we understand that there's Phase 2 of the system is coming up, so there will be work to do very soon. Wee Leng was even so glad that he could do OT. -_-' I hope my OIC won't be offended...
I had a pretty nice dream yesterday. I was wearing a bridal gown and going to get married to my Darling. :> The dream doesn't look real but I think it's good enough. I remember hugging my Darling and said:"I'm so happy, now I could sleep eith u and hug u everyday, telling u all my happiness/sadness or problems every night" I was smiling in my dreams.
I'm already starting to think about my marriage life. I know it's a little too early.. but I know it's really time to think about it. Is Darling my prospective husband? Cause I know.. after Darling went into the Army and when he comes out.. go into the Uni, work for a few years.. Well, it's about marriagable age le.. All years will pass in a breeze. All I know, I'm happy with him and I love him alot.. I'm willing to share happiness and woes with him, whether it's now or forever. =)
if i ain't got you|9:12 AM|

Wednesday, February 23, 2005
I hate it when I'm in love with sleeping and eating. ON my way to work this morning, I keep wondering.. why do I become like this? Eat and Sleep became my first priority?
The Past
Eating
I used to eat very little and skipped many many meals.. even it's dinner time.. I won't really go and eat becoz I'm studying for my exams (when I was in Sec2). My mother keep asking me to eat mroe and more.. advised me not to skip any meals..
Sleeping
This is even worst. KNowing I have to study in the morning the next day.. I still studied till 4-5am in the morning.. sometimes even 6! Only had a sleep for 20 minutes? (Sec 2 again)
Now
Eating
Now, even before studying my exams, I will make a point that I have to take my meals and I can't really miss any more meals coz I might have gastric. And that explains my size.
Sleeping
I make sure that I have sufficient sleep even though it's studying for exams.. I rarely or even don't study till so late now.. UNLESS it's very last minute.
* Then I suddenly tot.. I fell in love with these 2 when I was with my ex-bf. In Chinese sayings "ai wu ji wu". YAh.. he's also loves to eat and sleep alot.. in fact my appetite became huge becoz of him.. Everytime when he eats.. or with his mother.. if they cannot finsih.. they will stuff the rest to me.. and encourage me to eat more and more.. EAting became a habit and love for me. That's includes sleeping.. coz he sleeps his day away most of the time..
Especially when I met Darling.. I was feeling so fortunate and I eat more to express my happiness (weird ar?) That's why I'm like that!!!
I hate my EX-bf for that, I really do now.
I want to be the old me again.. =(
if i ain't got you|9:14 AM|

Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Hello~ I'm back!! Hehehz.. okie, as I've promised, I will tok about wad Happened last Friday till now.
Friday
Work was as boring as ever but I was feeling happy and light-hearted~ Hehehz.. coz I was so so so glad that I was meeting the girls. =) When I was on the train on my way to Novena Square Fish and Co, messages and calls started to come.. some were apologizing that they would be late wheras someone in particular keep checking where's my location. Lolz~ Then I met up with Darling at Raffles MRT and he wore the A-X shirt I bought for him (:. So Sweet. Luckily every Friday was dressed down.. so yapz.. wore kinda casual. When I reached there, Yan Rong and Lindy were already seated and we started to tok crap again.. They didn't allow me (surprsingly including Darling) to take any desserts and keep commenting that the desserts are not appealing( I started to suspect smthing). Then much later.. Celeste, Jovin and Jun Bin came.. oh did I missed out a point that we saw Mr Latiff and his NCC cadets. Yapz.. Then we ordered our food and yapz after which we girls went to the toilet and when we came back, there was a lighted chocolate cake on our table! I was so happy coz it's the cake I've always wanted to try. Thanks again girls! Yapz.. then after such a full meal.. went home, took a train.. go to my hse, collect some stuffs and off to Darling's house.. Lolz.. I stayed over Darling's hse that night. Didn't do anyhting much, slept pretty early too coz I guess both of us were very tired.
Saturday
Supposed to go Carissa's hse for tuition the next morning I woke up, but MOther said have to use my car.. so not convenient to go there.. anyway becoz my Dad's car was sent for repair. So I postphoned my tuition and drove back hom like about 8 plus? Then when I reached hom.. I bathed, changed and off to Darling's hse again. We ate Mc DOnald's breakfast together and then went back to his hse to watch the 9PM show which both of us missed on Friday. hahahzz..then after that I lazed around in Darling's bed while he played Maple sTORY (Darling keep complaining why I like to lie on the bed.. looks so lazy.. wahhahaa) Then after that we watched Ella Enchanted (a vcd I borrowed) and at the same time had lunch (Maggie Mee). The show was alright, quite funny. Then after that laze around somemore then about 5 we left to Marina Bay to meet our poly-mates. Hahah, expected that alot of them will be late, coz we were too =). The turn-out was surprisinly not bad- 22 people. Only a few couldn't turn up. It's nice to see some old faces again after Year 3 Sem 1. Off we went and we ate very very full.. haha I hope you guys had a good time! Then we went River HongBao and took a ride.. Darling felt like puking then.. Poor Dear. Then about 11 plus.. go back to my hse and went to Darling's hse to stayed over again. This time we had a special heart to heart talk. Thanks dear, I'll try to overcome this fear.
Sunday
I left Darling's house about 1015AM and off to Carissa's hse coz I postphoned the tuition to Sunday. Touched on my fav subject- Fractions. SO time passed pretty quickly and yapz Carissa's grandma gave me a red packet! After that I went home and went to Darling's hse again.. coz his family going to his GodMa's hse to pai-nian and Darling's mother asked me to go along.. so off I went again! It all the way to Jurong lei~ Then got another 2 red packets then took a cab back to Darling's hse again. Darling and I took a nap.. poor Darling, didn't wake me up if not he could take the matress from the bed which I'm sleeping on. He said I slept till so soundly he didn't bear to wake me up. Then about 5 plus, Darling's family and went to Gim Tim Restaurant at AMK. Ate Yu Sheng and it's really nice~ =) HIs parents are so nice. Then after that went home again. Watch TV till nine plus then go home.. I was so tired...
Monday
Arghz!! Up early for work again!! This time got things to do.. Wee Leng and I distributed work and we started doing.. do and do and do.. until let of work already we also dunnoe.. lolz.. so left a lil later. Met Darling again.. hehe.. boy he look so good in white. Like my Prince.. kekekeke.. (:
Today
Just finished testing... so tired... and extremely tried after typing such a long long post.. Till then!
if i ain't got you|1:27 PM|

Sunday, February 20, 2005
My weekends was a blast!! LOlz~ Very busy, but happy =). I would like to take this opportunity to thank a few groups of people! Not in any particular order~
Friday
I met up with my bitch gang and I really had a great time. Great food too! Hehehehzz.. Can't be any happier~ I would like to thank Yan Rong, Lindy and Celeste for giving me that wonderful surprise!! I really love that chocolate cake alot.. I have been craving for months since after Yan Rong showed me the webbie. Double thanks to Yan Rong for driving all the way to that place to get that cake for me. =) Two thumbs up guys! Also, I would like to thank Jovin and her bf Jun Bin for taking time off to celebrate with me, ur presences are deeply felt. Also like to thanks Mr Latiff and the batch of NCC cadets =) Glad to meet u all there!!! And also Kate, it didn't occur to me till Lindy mentioned.. in ur heart, I may be ranked last compared to ur choir practice and projects?? Hmmm.. thanks for ur wishes anyway.
Saturday
I met up with my poly mates. Ate steamboat at Marina Bay and it seems to be like a class gathering!! Thanks for all those who have attended!
1) Emily and Xin Hui (You girls are really thoughtful, went all the way to Tampines to get the swatch watch I've wanted) + Sean, Jon, Sim Lim, Wee Beng, Seet Wei and his pretty and sweet gf Xiu Yun. Thanks guys! U Roxz!!
2) Melissa and her marcho bf Joey, Geraldine, Yi Luan, Zhen Zhen and Wei Long (Thanks for the card and the bag~~ Hehehhezzz. Love u all! MUackz!) And Wei Long, thanks for the crappy jokes at Table 4. Lolz!!
3) Chun Hua (Thanks for taking ur time off to attend this gathering =) And thanks for ur doggie soft toy!)
4) Pei Ting and Zhi Ting (Really glad u all could come!!! Hehehez.. and thanks for the Message Recorder soft toy!)
5) Ling Xuan and Benji (Thanks for the mug and LX, thanks for shifting ur job shift just for my day =) Sorry to have troubled u..)
6) Shannen and her cute bf Si wei, thanks for the shirt and thanks for the chocolate cake! It made us so so so full! Thanks for coming by for a while anyway!
7) Doreen and her ah Bear look-alike cum cute bf Max (Gee, thanks for the set of tea cups, they are really cute!)
8) ZhiQiang and her quiet gf MeiYing, thanks for the winnie the pooh and thanks for coming too!
Oh yah, I would like to thank Mr Chew too~ Thanks for being so concerned about my health and well-being. U are soooooooo great teacher!!!
LAst but not least, I would like to thank my Sweet Darling for accompanying me to both occasions!! And thanks for being so so so sweet to me~ =) And Yah.. thanks to Darling's parents too for treating me such a nice meal over at Gim Tim Restaurant =)
* urm.. so sorry about it.. I think there's another this beautiful notepad among my pressies.. I don't know who give it or did someone left it there?? Please message me okie? I really want to know! Thanks!
Will blog aboout briefly wad happened on Friday, Saturday and Sunday =) Next Time!
if i ain't got you|10:07 PM|

Friday, February 18, 2005
Yesterday.. my day was simple but I'm still happy .. Darling bought a heart-shaped cake ( with Strawberry and vallina ice-cream) from Swensens and my Mother bought me chocolate cake from Baker's Inn.. =) Thanks!! Muackz!
Rent a few vcds to watch and stayed at home the whole day.. feeling sick ar.. the medicine made me drowsy but still I'm going to meet my bitch gang today. YiPee!! Gonna treat them Fish and Co then tomorrow going to meet my Poly PeepZ~ Treating them to Marina Bay and eat steamboat. Yayz!! Finally can see some of them.. it seems like a class gathering thou.. I almost invited the whole class.. I think.. hahhaa
Hmmm.. can't wait to let off work today!
if i ain't got you|2:41 PM|

Thursday, February 17, 2005
Happy Birthday to Me!
I eventually took an MC today... Yesterday was the last straw.. I tot of letting my sickness recover by itself, but it seems to be getting worst each day.. And due to the "nagging" of Mr Chew, I've decided to take an MC today.. Thanks Mr Chew~ I'm sorry if I've spread it to my friends or whoever work in the same level as me. T_T
Anyway.. I'm already 20!! Yay!! Sounds so old leh.. Lolz.. anyway I hve friends msging me throughout the night.. Ranges from 1AM to 4Am and 6Am-7AM.. I wonder issit becoz the network problem or issit becoz they really slp that late? or wake up that early. BUt anyway!! Thanks to all of U!! ESpecially thanks to some ppl who surprisingly remembered my birthday although we've lost contact for quite some time =)
Thanks to Darling too.. He called me at 12 and sang "Happy Birthday" song like last year.. LOlz.. I chuckled and smiled at the other end of the phone.. and also.. he gave me a handmade rose. =) Thanks again dear!
Gotta see a doctor later..*cough cough~
if i ain't got you|8:27 AM|

Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Another 1 hr and 45 min is my birthday.. but why do I feel indifferently from any other days?
if i ain't got you|10:15 PM|

Supposed to do some testing today bu the website is loading so so so slow.. it could take up to 20-30 minutes.. really.. Wee Leng and I tried for a couple of times and it was laoding so long!. If we were lucky, we could log in like after waiting for 10-15 min?
Anyway, I keep going to the loo and the people must be wondering if I have a bladder problem.. It's becoz my throat was irritating and I drink lots of water.. I could get the VIP of the toilet u know..
I'm feeling really sick now.. Feverish cum cough.. my eye lids are drooping.. My head is feeing heavy.. ar.. I really feel like going home now.. ;(
Darling is still having a meeting with his supervisor.. I wonder why is there so many things for him to do.. wELL, I will not be surprised if she threw all the junk work to him which they are supposed to be done by her... And guess wad.. wad he did is only documentation.. didn't learn anything much..
if i ain't got you|11:27 AM|

Tuesday, February 15, 2005
I'm quite glad today.. it's more like a sign of relief.. well, Darling and I have finally made some decisions about our future.. we plan to take a degree, either in NUS or NTU. Hhahaa.. Just a month ago.. we were still thinking aout what to do with our future.. Me? Tot of resting one year, rot at home and take some part-time jobs.. LOlz.. but now I just signed up.. Darling? He planned to only think thru only when he's in NS.. but still he signed up! Yep! MOre or less we can see the road ahead of us!
And yah girls (directing to the bitches gang).. stop scolding me/ calling me pervert or wad-ever... It's my birthday.. why can't I treat u all? Since it's my birthday.. u all would want me to be happy right? Then let me treat lar.. I feel happier.. really~ Okie? Lolz.. See u gals on Friday!
if i ain't got you|11:17 PM|

Took a test, pretty true~
You are gentle, caring, quiet, dutiful, neat, dependable, modest, unassuming, and humble. You can be counted on to make sure everything is in its place, that people are doing what they’re supposed to be doing and all the supplies have been secured.
You prefer to work behind the scenes, driven by a sense of obligation, often overworked for the benefit of others. You prefer tasks that are highly outlined, organized and practical. You fill your life with meaningful activities and schedule any down time. You enjoy helping any friend in need. You have a strong work ethic and can be critical of sloth, laziness and people who have possessions only through extreme indebtedness. All you’d like in return for all of your hard work is recognition and gratitude, neither of which you receive nearly in proportion to the effort and time you exert.
One of your greatest strengths is supporting family or group activities. Your contribution of cooking, cleaning, fixing or constructing is an expression of your love and loyalty to everyone present, and such labor is truly a pleasure for you to fulfill.
You were a model child. Relatively neat, sweet and conscientious, you were the child that every parent thinks they’re going to have. You may have openly disagreed or rebelled but if so it was short-lived and harmless and you were quick to accept the judgment of your parents along with any punishment they deemed reasonable.
Parenting, for you, is a lifetime commitment. You are protective, supportive and patient, often putting your children’s needs before your own.
You prefer not to make waves or attract too much individual attention. You go by the book and are suspicious of anyone suggesting that tried and true established methods should be revised or ignored.
You have a strong appreciation for antiques, traditions and heirlooms. You have a natural appreciation for and connection with your past and the people in your family tree. You find special joy in guarding old family artifacts regardless of their monetary value.
You put a lot of energy into maintaining your home. You keep things tidy, visually appealing and in working condition. You make sure your home is always well stocked with food and supplies. You take better care of your possessions than most types, cleaning, oiling, maintaining things so that they will always be nice, maintain their value, and function when needed. You want things to be sturdy and may replace something which isn’t broken if, after acquiring it, you realize that it’s of the new, shabbier quality.
You may or may not be a pessimist, but your speech is laced with reminders to realistically expect problems to arise. You are aware of the general dangers of living and are conscious of the fact that other people don’t heed your warnings as often as they should. You are also the first to point out to someone who seems surprised that they should’ve known that setbacks would occur.
In a marriage you are helpful and supportive of your spouse. You enjoy working on tasks together, or working on your specialties at the same time (one cooks while the other fixes the plumbing). As a parent you do all you can to ensure that your children are well behaved and hard working.
Take the test here
if i ain't got you|2:02 PM|

I feel like crap this morning.... I'm in a lousy mood and I'm sick again.. Having cough, flu and phleum.. =( I wonder how many MCs I'm going to take during my course of attachment.
In order to pamper myself and brighten my day a lil.. I bought BK breakfast.. it's good to see that the service crew was greeting you polietly~ =) It perks me a lil then..
Read my inbox this morning, my supervisor replied.. Coz last Friday I sent her an email and asked if we could do more things and stuff.. the funny thing is.. when she emailed back.. she apologized to us for being so uncaring and such.. >.< And today will be meeting her at 2.30pm =). Maybe we have things to do now.. That's a good sign. She's a nice girl, really but she dun have to apologetic..
if i ain't got you|9:07 AM|

Monday, February 14, 2005
Today's my first year anniversary with Darling and also my 2nd Valentine's with Darling but it seems so different one year ago. I cried at the end of the day and those were the tears of joy~
My day with Darling was pretty simple. A simple dinner at Billy Bombers and went straight home. You all might think it simple and unromantic but what's going thru my heart is more thaN that.
I suddenly feel that Valentine's, First year anniversary, my Birthday are just like any normal days. I don't treat them so important anymore..Normally for all these days, Gals expecting alot from guys.. and gals getting upset if bfs don't meet up with expectations etc. What most important at the end of the day is that I'm holding his hand, he's loving me and I'm loving him and also he is happy. =) What's the point in feeling so much into these days? It's just the few days of the year which u get special gifts and what if ur partner treat u only so special on that day? How about the rest of the days??? SO wad if it's ur first year, 2nd year or 3rd year of relationship with ur partner?? Wad if u get special treatment only on ur anniversary? What most impt is that ur partner live up to his/her promise, to love u unconditionally.. no matter good or bad times and treat u good and well everyday.
I'm proud to say, I don't need birthdays, anniversaries or valentines to make me happy~ coz being with Darling, is already the best gift I could get every single day and I'm happy enough. And yes, he treats me very well every single day, where can u get a better gift than that? =)
I love u darling.. u made me realise what true love is and this is a promise I will make to u, a promise of lifetime:
I will love u forever
if i ain't got you|10:22 PM|

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!!
To all couples: May all of u stay happy together and forever!!!
To all the singles: May you find your true love soon!!!
To all couples-to-be: Treasure each and every moment with him/her!!! Take this chance to make ur Valentine's Dayful of Lurvvvveeeee!
To all singles-to-be: If u happen to be sad within this period of time.. Just forget about the jerks/bitches! They ain't worth ur love~ (Touch-wood)
To all married couples: Give ur spouse a lil surprises lar!! Keep the day romantic!
To all gays, lesbians, homosexuals etc: Urm.. stay happy and treat ur date good! =)
I gotta update.. I'm feeling sleepy now but still I have to update.
CNY:
This year's CNY was not bad~ During the eve, I watched Constantine with my Darling and OMG Keanue Reeves is suave!! Still looking cute at his age!
Day 1 is as usual, visit my 2 grandma's place, one lao po's place and unlce's place eventually. Darling came over to my uncle's hse and played mahjong with my cousins! And he won quite alot~ Hheheeezzz.. he's sweet coz he said he misses me.. that's why he decided to meet one Day 1.
Day 2 besides waking up with a flaring temper.. my day was okie. Heard some heart-breaking news however. I went to Darling's hse and met his dad's side relatives. Collected quite alot of ang bos there.. And his dad and mum give so much~ Thanks alot! HIs grandma gave me 2 ang baos.. according to Darling.. the 1st one is for first time meeeting me and the 2nd one is just CNY red ang bao. Bernice stayed my hse till 4 am in the morning!!
Day 3 went back to work but was allowed to let off early.. hehehe.. then Bernice came over at my hse again.. stayed till 4am again.. tok lotsa crap
Day 4 went to Yao Cong's hse.. and that day was an unforgettable day. Darling gave me my V day's gift in advance. =) He gave me a pair of dimoand earrings!! I was so happy coz it's the first time I've received diamond as a gift and furthermore it's from my true love! He wrapped around his arms around me when he presented the gift.. Lolz.. I feel like he just proposed to me~ lol. Thanks darling.. love u so so so much!
Then after going to YC's hse for a while I went to meet Lindy, Celeste and Yan Rong. Got Yan Rong her last year's birthday pressie then went to my hse and watched Kumar and Harold in da white castle.. smthing like dat. SOme funny show.. Lolz.. then law yu sheng with the gals.. Did that every year (With Jovin and Kate too, they came later.) Had fun with u girls!
Day 5 went to Meli's hse.. Gee.. we played cards and tok quite much. Meli is stilla s cute and funny as ever.. hehe then after the visiting.. Darling drove to AMK picked up roses for me! He's so sweet.. he knew exactly wad I love! White roses! Yapz..12 of them. I know u all must be wondering why white roses.. Some of u miight think it symbolizes death or marriage.. but to me.. It's purity.. it's not dyed with any colours~ =) Pure love u should call it.. hehee.. thanks dear! MOst imptly, he got me the colour and flowers I love. Ah yah.. hehe.. Darling made smthing for me.. A blue board with his folded hearts sticked onto it.. It was supposed to be a board with our pictures pasted around~ OMG, I can't wait to get a digi cam now! Thanks dear, you made my Valentine's Day full of happiness and love! ;)
Moi friendster is updated.. hehehe.. finally new photos!
I had many past relationships, but I only have one true love because true love never ends, and that's him.
if i ain't got you|12:19 AM|

Friday, February 11, 2005
Day 3 of CNY adn why am I working? Hahaha.. I believe many of u all out there are in the same boat as me but most of the working adults took leave.. Ar.. this is crap.
I slept at about 4 plus in da morning becoz Bernice's daddy and my daddy plus a few of the uncles were playing dai dee and they played till 4AM in the morning and poor Bernice and I got to wait till that long.. Ya.., we did try to lie down and sleep, but we couldn't sleep. Ao actually I only had about 3 hrs of sleep.. T_T
But still I had a great time with Bernice coz we really had heart to heart toks about practically everything.. =)
The journey to work this morning seems to be awefully long.. I dunone why.. wanted to slp in the train but it's hard to.. Wanted to make a coffee for myself but I got a slight tummy ache~ When something goes wrong.. everything goes wrong! Alright.. I shall stop blogging.. shall blog about my CNY soon..
if i ain't got you|9:01 AM|

Thursday, February 10, 2005
$%&^&$%^$$##%
Every 2nd Day of new year I got so blardy pissed off! MY damned -pea brains and inconsiderate neighbour always having a lion dance at his hse at about 7 plus at this very morning! It's the 2nd day of new year and not everyone wakes up as early as him (coz everyone will be so tired for Day 1) What does he want to do??? Show OFF? Tell everyone that U can hire a lion dance troupe when all of US are blardy at home sleeping?! Yes, Mr Neighbour, you have succeeded. IN fact U made me hate lion dance now.
Sometimes I would like to throw bananas over at ur hse and hit the damn lion head and all of u would stop and look over and I will curse and swear back. This is a sign for u man. [international finger]
(Sorry readers if I'm so so so crude and rude.. becoz I really flare my temper if some ppl disturbs me sleep.. especially when I do not have enough)
if i ain't got you|8:18 AM|

Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Today is the eve of CNY! YipEe~ Hmm.. I think the only thing I'm excited about is getting red packets and meeting Bernice up again and also some of my sec school friends~
I was supposed to go to work today, but my frids' OIC helped to ask our OIC and there we go, off on CNY's EVE! Poor Darling still have to work, maybe it's becoz his supervisor is not a Chinese.. Not being racist over here~
When I woke up this morning, my head was spinning badly.. dunnoe why, this has never really happened before. ONly when I have low blood pressure~ I guess I have low blood pressure becoz of my veins.. they say it's too deep or too narrow (I forgot) That's it's hard to get blood out from me when I donate blood.
Oh great! I'm watching Constantine! And guess I'll be meeting babes for KTV tonight~ Yet to text YR. Anyway, V Day is coming~ Hahahaha.. what are u alll getting for ur "ones"?
if i ain't got you|10:07 AM|

Monday, February 07, 2005
Manage to meet up with Darling yesterday and I gave him to try on the Shirt I bought for him for our Anniversary.. have to give him an early pressie coz I scared it cannot fit into him then I have to go down and change. But luckily it can. =) Hope you like it Dear.
He came over around 11 plus I think then Dear asked me to go over his house to have steamboat for dinner coz his brother is leaving today to Thailand for work. SO it's kinda like an early reunion dinner. Very full and also very paiseh.. I was very quiet and also listening to their conversations.. pretty funny. Hehhezz..
Yesterday I managed to ask a few questions about admissions to NUS (Thanks Xin Yan!) and luckily my doubts were answered. Another day of work~ =)
if i ain't got you|9:21 AM|

Saturday, February 05, 2005
It's been about 2 days I last saw Darling.. Well, I managed to pull thru (Sounds like as if I dun see him for one day I'll die~) Used to seeing him everyday and suddenly never see him for 2 days feel a lil funny er.. MIss him of coz..
I went Orchard with Bernice today and gosh.. it's so so crowded.. seems like everyone is doing their last minute shopping~ Luckily I managed to get wad I wanted. =)
Watched Aviator yesterday and the show suxz.. ya suxz.. coz I dunoe wad the hell is it toking about. And the show is like 169mins?! Arghz.. It came to a point which I'm irritated coz LDC has this weird habit of repeating his sentence.. and he repeated so many times till I got so fed up~ Arghz~ His shows just sucks la...
I'm so tired.. going for a shower..
if i ain't got you|9:16 PM|

Friday, February 04, 2005
I hope someone can understand how I feel now...
if i ain't got you|7:09 PM|

Hello, first week on IPP and I'm already on MC! It's not really a good feeling lar.. coz I'm so bored.. I was already sick before IPP and only yesterday I went to see the doctor and she said my throat was very red (although I told her that my throat is recovering). Then she gave me drowsy medicine and a MC. At first I felt weird of not going to work, coz I'll feel guilty.. dunnoe why and when I woke up early today (a habit).. I felt like changing and go to work (Crazy me ar?) But then.. I want to recover before CNY.. so I better stay home and rest.
I just had a bathe, took my medicine and I think in any time I'm going to fall asleep again..
The medicine mades my pain numb, it's good in a way somehow...
if i ain't got you|11:10 AM|

Thursday, February 03, 2005
Hello bloggie.. I'm here to update again.. U know smthing.. I never go for lunch.. hahah.. I eman it's sucha coincidence.. I don't feel like eating.. then Wee Leng and the rest have their own appointments. Well, they are nice to offer to buy smthing for me, right now I can't think of any to eat. I'm feeling very upset.. my heart is aching badly.. I have another 100 plus pages documents to read- just assigned. I'm not complaining, in fact I welcomed it. It made my mind busy for a while..
I guess I'm really in-secure about myself.. and I tend to worry alot.. and and top of those matters.. I'm down with a flu.. Hate it when I'm sick.. I can't think well.. I feel like going home and bury myself in the bed. I guess if I'm really not feeling well this evening.. I'm going to heed advice and go and see a doctor.. If I'm not tired enough.
"Good things will not last forever. Memories are just memories. Thinking of happy memories which will not happen again will make u upset. This is something I have to accept now."
if i ain't got you|1:02 PM|

Wasn't really a good morning today.. was pissed of with some guy in thr MRT.. As usual, all of u should know that the train would be crowded towards the way to City Hall.. most of us would be standing and holding to a handle or pillar.. Then I was holding the pillar.. then there's this guy.. He was acutally holding a handle at the top then I dunnoe why he leaned against the pillar.. I kept staring at him and feeling so pissed.. I mean why can't he be considerate enough.. By leaning against the pillar.. only one could hold onto the pillar, the rest around him couldn't hold it at all.. everyone needs support onto smthing right? Thank goodness, he was in the train till City Hall..
Wee Leng is late again as usual.. and and got myself a egg, cheese and ham toast. Waiting for him to come so that all of us could mix our drinks.. Arghz.. Where is he?
I'm glad that I'm able to shed a lil fats away.. especially the area around my tummy.. I've not been eating much lately.. not that I want it but becoz of my sore throat.. It makes me loose my appetite.. Hope that I'll be thinner.. hehee
And oh yah! Good luck Celeste! I hope to hear some good news soon!
if i ain't got you|9:09 AM|

Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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--> Maybe this explains everything..
if i ain't got you|4:41 PM|

Absence makes ur heart fonder.. which is so true..
I suddenly tot of my FYPJ Partner Yu Yun.. I missed those days when we were drinking mushroom soup together.. missing those times when I talked to her about my problems... and missing those times when she lent me a shoulder to cry on. We have passed through the hardest times together..
Hey Yu Yun.. U take care in GrideNode k? I believe u can do it de~ Jia You!!!
if i ain't got you|10:36 AM|

Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Day 2 of IPP. I had a good start in the morning becoz I took train with Darling to City Hall station.. it makes me realised how much I've missed him. Feel like hugging him when I saw him. =P But got so amny ppl around and Emily is there.. so psiseh.. Lolz.. Kidding~
I reached office pretty early.. 8.45A.M and there are only about 4-5 people at the whole floor? Arghz.. guess next time I'll come later.. I've already applied the courses in NTU and NUS.. but for NUS.. I didn't really apply the course which I initially wanted.. Coz I dunoe why.. that particular course is not on the scroll bars.. funny ar..
I dunoe why.. after when I apply for the course, I don't feel confident about it.. I mean I dunoe if I can really get in to the course I want.. if I can't.. I think I'm not going into Uni anymore.. coz.. I dun want to waste another 4 years doing wmting which I don't like.
My 3 supervisors are not here again this morning.. I wonder where all of them have went. I'm so bored.. Can't wait for the day to end.
if i ain't got you|10:36 AM|
